If only you had never been denied her... If only she had never been taken away from you, ripped from this life so cruelly.
If you had never been denied her, I would never have been denied you.
She was your first love and should have been your only. But fate took her from you, leaving you torn and broken, never to be whole again.
You were my first love and never should have been. I should have met you, whole and at peace, never feeling the desire to mend the un-mendable. Like trying to fill an endless void, my love was pointless.
Your heart is still with her, and mine is now with you. What a vicious cycle of heartbreak fate has laid out for us.
I only hope it stops here.
Fate is generally always cruel... But in the end i can only hope all the unchangeable pain will turn into some sort of positive outcome... however unlikely that may seem.
ReplyDeleteMaybe it's a matter of rethinking the situation.. Maybe in all actuality none of the meetings were never to transpire, and each of you would have gone on without knowing. He wouldn't of been with her, and you wouldn't of been with him. He would be different. You would be different.
The amount of growth that happens within heartbreak, no matter how staggeringly painful it maybe, is the greatest.
Alteration of perception, understanding, and overall appreciation of things.
But in the end, all you can do is cherish the memories. Be thankful for the time you were able to have, because it might not been at all. Wouldn't you not trade those memories for anything?
Just don't remember the end. Just the beginning and being, and perhaps you can continue, happily.
I suppose it's a lot easier to find a silver lining when you are on the bright side of the cloud.
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure if growth springs from heartbreak. I've only found cynicism and bitterness. Maybe I was just broken to begin with.
Those memories, no matter how wonderful, will fade. I have little to remember them by. Few photos, mostly ticket stubs. But the end is the most vivid. The most emotionally draining. It left the largest gash in my mind.